I Wanted You to Know

I Wanted You to Know
Written by: Gloria M. Matthews

For a long time now,
I’ve been struggling.
Struggling to find the right words,
Struggling to find a common ground,
Yet to no avail,
It was all for nothing.

So,I wanted you to know
That I loved you so.
I wanted you to know
That I cared for you,
’Cause I know this much,
(I know this much),
To be this true.

I wanted you to know
That I loved you so.
I wanted you to know that
I cared for you,
‘Cause I know you and you know me,
Baby, didn’t you see?

I wanted you to know
That I loved you so.
I wanted you to know
That I cared for you
‘cause you know I’d do anything,
Anything for you,
you know I will.

I wanted you to know
That I loved you so
I wanted you to know
That I cared for you
‘Cause this love is
A love that won’t ever go away.

I wanted you to know
That I loved you so
I wanted you to know
That I cared for you
‘Cause this heartache
Is slowly,
Slowly killing me day and night.

I wanted you to know
That I loved you so
I wanted you to know
That I cared for you
Yet, you pushed me away
And shut me out.
Baby, don’t you know how much it hurt?

I wanted you to know
That I loved you so
I wanted you to know
That I cared for you
And this I know, (this I know)
I will never forget the good.

I wanted you to know
That I loved you so
I wanted you to know
That I cared for you
But baby I can’t, I can’t do this,
Not much longer now.

I wanted you to know
That I loved you so
I wanted you to know
That I cared for you
So why did you, hurt me
So badly?

I wanted you to know
That we loved you so
I wanted you to know
That we cared for you
But why did you, hurt us
So badly, so badly?

I wanted you to know
That we loved you so
I wanted you to know
That we cared for you
Yet we are left,
feeling disappointed.

I wanted you to know
That I loved you so
I wanted you to know
That I cared for you
‘Cause now I have to say good bye
And it may be forever.

So, I wanted you to know
That I loved you so
I wanted you to know
That I cared for you
I wish you the best
Yet, forgive me,
I gotta love me too.

I wanted you to know
That I loved you so
I wanted you to know
That I cared for you
Just know this much,
This much is true,
Love will always win.

I wanted you to know
That I loved you so
I wanted you to know
That I cared for you
.........

No words can ever describe the pain,
But in the end
As tears are shed
It’s the memories
The good ones
That breaks the heart more
Because it's all gone.
No more.

So here I am struggling with my own heart
Struggling to forgive myself,
Struggling to wrap my mind around
Being used and allowing it.
But no more.
No more.
If you only truly knew,
Truly saw,
Truly acknowledged,
We wouldn’t be where we are now.
But we are.

It’s like pins and needles.
But I guess honesty
Wasn’t in the cards.
I’ll always be honest
I’ll always admit my mistakes
I’ll always own up to my side
But I would never take full blame
For everything.
Never.
At least I know I’m real.
At least I know I’m not perfect.
At least I know, I’m okay knowing that.
But the heart still aches
Betrayal after betrayal,
I’m done.

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