Pieces of Me

Today I just bid farewell to my grandmother as I laid her to rest on top of my mother who went before her.  She lived to be 93 years old. Today I got to see faces I have not seen in years, almost a decade for most.  Driving into my hometown was like a trip down memory lane and driving past my old home, where I was raised by my grandma only gave me a sense of hope that betters days are yet to come. It has been three years since I last saw my grandma.  She was still moving around and talking, making sure she was on the move.  The one thing about her no matter what she always took home with her and today we all know she is home with the Lord. I have not been writing as much due to life events taking its place.  However, it is in my experience that no matter what, I am always thinking about what events in my life taught me to be the person I am, the woman I am today.  I smile today because I know deep down inside  I have grown from all the ...

Tonight I attended a local meeting and I learned something about myself.  I am helpful, more helpful in educating and knowing the resources that are out there for hard of hearing and deaf individuals.  I'm no expert, but I think I come pretty close to it. I lost my hearing when I was just four years old.  As I was thinking back to that time and up to today, even I was offended by my own hearing loss because I feed off of the hearing individuals who were always around me.  I was never around other hard of hear or deaf individuals.  Now as I approach the age of 29 I am still new to the hard of hearing and deaf community.  I feel left out due to losing my vocabulary in ASL, (BOOOO!) I know.  Now, I am thinking about signing up for a few ASL classes and hopefully get some practice in so that I may interact with those who have used ASL all their life. When you grow up in a "hearing" community, you get used to being left out or picked on or even taking o...

As time has passed me by, I have learned that it was time to let go of people, things, and old habits to move forward.  Life has been a roller-coaster ride for me.   I had my highs and I had my lows.  It was hard trying to to work through my own life's issues and situations that were emotionally and physically draining.  However, once I came to realized it was time to let go, I was scared of the simple little fear that I was losing a part of myself.  In the end, I realized I didn't lose a part of myself.  I saved myself from hurt. I just ordered TD Jakes book "Let it Go".  I am looking forward to reading this book and learning more about what it means to truly let it go.  Of course, I am feeling lighter, freer and worried free now.  I understand, I can't always be that person in someone else's background or be that person in waiting.  Sometimes the very things we need is right in front of us the whole time and we were too blind to see ...

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While Valentines is known for showering girlfriends, fiances, and wives with flowers, gifts and cards; it is also known as Single Awareness Day (aka S.A.D.).   However, Valentines is also a day of past hurts, reminders of past relationship(s), regrets and beating yourself up on the "what ifs" and "it could have been(s)".  It is a reminder that love is great and love hurts.  So before you single people decide to give into the negativity, think about what you have been blessed with.  I truly do not believe we are fully alone. Yes, I am single as well but that did not stop me from enjoying my Valentines this year.  Instead, I celebrated it in God's name because his love is and will always be unconditional.  A few years ago, I was that single chick who loathed Valentines.  Every time I saw a post on Facebook, all I could think of was my ex and how he did me wrong and where I messed up and the whole nine yards of withdrawing from a relationship that ...

 Clink the link below, it teaches you a little something about life. 9 Lessons on Loss, Forgiveness, and Healing Read this for it is true in many ways.