Pieces of Me

As I have been trying to play catch up, life tends to get busy and obviously I'm still trying to catch up.  I am usually responding or answering questions among others on FB in regards to the CIs (Cochlear Implant(s)) and HAs (Hearing Aid(s)) but I know I haven't really been on much.  So my apologies. I was having issues with my nine and a half year old computer and it kept crashing on me.  So when I started to response or work on a blog or tweet or to even try to type up something in the Cochlear Community - my computer went hay-wired on me!  So it has been very frustrating to not be able to participate fully but to do so here and there.  Now, I have a working refurbished Dell tower, which I honestly didn't want to put out the money for, but since I do graphic designs on the side for friends who want me to help them out and I also write - I needed my programs to be fully functional and uninterrupted.  I've only had it for a few days now, so here hoping t...

This year theme for Better Hearing and Speech Month (BHSM) is "Communication Disorders are Treatable." If you go to the American Speech-Language and Hearing Association site ( Click here ) you will see over the course of the next four weeks there will be four topics covered: Newborn Hearing Screening and follow up Noise-induced hearing loss in children Communication issues related to autism Language and Literacy  Also starting this week May 4, 2014 - there is an international campaign called Caption Everything which asks all businesses and organizations to caption everything.  This campaign is coming out of the UK but expresses the importance of captioning for those who are hard of hearing or deaf.  To learn more about this campaign click here . Captioning is also known as Closed Caption on many entertainment screens.  It can also be called Subtitles for movies, documentaries and more.  If businesses promoted captioning in their business,...

Maybe its just me, but I've grown to some degree detached from those who do know me.  Only very, very few I remain extremely close to and attached. In light of recent events, I've decided to distant myself from some people and leave them all alone for good.  After a while, it's not worth the arguments, the disagreements, the mind games, the plotting and scheming, and lack of communication to even be call a healthy relationship.  Over the years because of my background, I really don't allow myself to get attached to anyone easily.  But in a heart beat I will be out of the picture if I sense I'm being left out, not trustworthy or basically just a person feeling less then "ideal" to have in someone's life.  I don't appreciate being used or being a pawn. If in any manner I sense no one is telling me something, I will just easily walk away. It is easy to walk away? No, it's not.  I may not be the best in expression my emotions in person, for exp...

What does it mean to be Happy? Last night I was chatting with a close friend of mine and the topic of Happiness came up.  From my personal experience, I believe for me happiness is being content with what you have and having the ability to count your blessings.  I know for some happiness tends to take on many different meanings for every single individual.  I am also aware that people who see those without are perplexed by how happy a person can be with less.  What is it about those people who have less but are happy different?  They probably understand how short life is, how "little" value materialistic things are, how it's the moments in life matters more and how to appreciate every opportunity they get or have.  They may be far and few inbetween, but they are the ones that get LIFE. In the past, I used to listen to conversations that involved relationships and for some being happy means relying on their current or future partner.  The thing abou...

This past weekend I was on some sort of an emotional roller-coaster. But in the mist of it, I while I was just tired and stressed out, I was reminded of past hurts out of the blues, loss time, missed friends and family, loss loves, loss everything.  I gotta say I must have cried for the first time in God knows how long really hard, all I did was hold a pilliow, with my box of tissues curled up on the couch in the dark and just sobbed away.  I was hurting from within for so long, fighting to hang on and my mind was saying to let go and my stubborn heart said "No, just wait!"  My mind has already dealt with everything and came to terms with it all.  My heart, is one that loves beyond reasons and refuses to give up even after it has been shattered into a million pieces.  Talk about conflict of the mind and the heart. ________________________________________________________________________________ Once upon a time, a young girl always used her head instead of her...

In my previous blog posts, I wrote I have been hard of hearing since the age of four.  So given the fact that I am now thirty, I do have insight from my own experiences growing up to being a single parent. As a child, my hearing loss range started out in the mild to moderate bilateral sensorineural hearing loss due to an unknown illness.  Now at four, they say it is important for any child to have well-developed speech and language usage.  I got held back in Kindergarten because of my hearing loss.  I felt cheated out of reading advanced books because I was hard of hearing.  I got jealous of the hearing kids because they all connected and I couldn't, even if I did make the effort, I always got some kind of backlash.  Of course, back in the 80s being made "fun of" was considered as a rite of passage in growing up, however for a child with a hearing loss it was damaging.  I became afraid of my peers to some degree, I developed a distrust among them and...

"View your life with kindsight. Stop beating yourself up about things from your past. Instead of slapping your forehead and asking, 'What was I thinking,' breathe and ask yourself the kinder question, 'What was I learning?'" ~Karen Salmansohn The above mentioned quote got me thinking and I got to say, we all beat ourselves up over something that has or had already happened be it big or small.  Yet, we fail to ask ourselves "What was I learning?" I have heard people tell me so many times, "To get over it!", "It's in the past, leave it alone!", "It's over, deal with it!"  Then I have heard it repeated to friends and those I know.  The problem with all those statements, no one is growing from them.  When you don't grow, you kinda remain stuck and soon enough when you become much more aware of your surroundings you'll feel stuck and wonder why you haven't moved forward.  The above men...